Stef, my girlfriend, is not here, she's in Calgary. For four months.
I gave her the Valentine's Day presents and cards I picked up for her before she left, since we really didn't have a choice in the matter, and she was so loving and sad about having to do that earlier than we would have liked, but we both accepted this. And no, I'm not going to tell you all what I gave her.
She called me at home last night around 12:01 am, to talk and whisper sweet stuff in my ear. It brought home the fact that we both miss each other, that while it's the one day of the year when you're expected to express your love for the other person (be they girl/boy-friend, significant other, wife, husband, spouse, whatever), we miss each other *all the time* when we can't see each other on any given day. So it must be love.
The fact that she's in Calgary and I'm in Ottawa right now has spoiled "the moment" of it all. She's got flowers coming to her today with a simple, not slobbering, card, that I arranged for on Monday, but the fact of the matter is that while I really miss her and I know she misses me, today hasn't been as important a romantic day as I thought it would be. It's the love itself that really counts, you know.
It's been snowing since last night, and isn't supposed to stop for most of the day (so the accumulation will be quite large, some 15 cms (a good 5 inches), and it was amazing this morning how the carpet of snow looked outside with the snow coming down. Reminded me of the snow globes that one used to find, the simpler ones that showed a domestic or homey little scene inside, rather than some of the more gaudy ones that we see today.
She didn't want to make a big deal of Valentine's Day this year (actually we didn't last year, and we were together for the evening then), but I can't help but feel a bit low today that I won't be seeing her this evening. And I'm sure we'll talk again tonight, so it's not all bad...
Again, such is life. You take the moments you can get, when you can get them. And you remember the moments that you've had. And that's better than having had no moments at all.