As anyone who's been reading this journal knows, July, 2007 was not a good month for me. In fact, it was a downright terrible month, to be honest. It started badly, and while it didn't finish badly, I think one can say that I went through a distinct rough patch there. The only good stuff that happened was the whole Ottawa Bluesfest couple of weeks, reviewed here (although I didn't get to see as much of it as I wanted to), and the Hollow Earth Expedition rpg demo that I ran.
I've been depressed, listless, guilty, angry, reflective and contemplative, and run the gamut of emotions in the aftermath of the break-up with Stefanie. I've spent part of the month sick to my stomach and bowels, either due to the metformin or the stress of everything personal that went on. I've been lacking any real desire to do stuff this past month, and the creative fires that I've always had have burned very, very low. I like to think that I've finally come to deal with it as best I can, and it's time to try and move on somewhat. It's not like I'm going to go looking for a relationship or any such thing in the near future, but there are other things I want to do right now, and I'm hoping I've got my joie de vivre back somewhat. Sure, I know there will be moments when I go back down into the dumps, but that's life. You roll with the blows that life sends you, you glory in the good stuff, and the rest of the time you just manage the best that you can and do what you can to make yourself a better person and to treat the people around you right.
I want to thank all of my friends who've stood by me and helped me get through this very rough patch of my life, and have supported me and didn't let me fall into dark oblivion. You all have no idea how much you've meant to me over the last month... And I want to thank my internet and virtual friends for their kind thoughts and everything during this past month as well.
So, it's a new month. A clean slate. A fresh start to things, so to speak. And to be honest, I feel somewhat better about life right now.